Well, I have started to edit my other series. The photo’s I took at the golf course. Not sue what I should call it but hey. Ill get there. Not much good has been happening for a while. You know how it is. The sign went up this morning, just after they left. Now I don’t even know how much time. Three months to live has been cut down to two.

You know my mouse pad is actually a piece of paper. I traced the mouse on to it with a pen. It looks pretty cool. School goes back soon. I'm so bored with out anything to do.

I finished writing letters to the people I love. Ill put them in the mail soon. I figured why not let the people I love the most know how much I love and appreciate them. So I wrote about 20 people a letter lol. Tired.

Went to the doctor’s yesterday, I have tonsillitis again. And no, no hockey for me. I'm safe. I'm pretty much a loner these day’s. When I get back to school they will all be like, oh why is she ignoring us, but I think I shall spend some solitary time for a while.

I don’t know if I’m being selfish by doing that. But I'm sick of acting as if nothing is going to happen, when I know it will. My fear has come true. Fate has done it again. Congratulation’s fate. You succeeded in running my life once again. I hope you’re happy.

I know it is. Fate sits there with its jeering smile happy to have ruined yet another life. I kid myself some days pretending it will be alright. But no body knows the truth, and if they do they don’t act like it. Maybe they want to pretend to. But I'm sick of pretending. No body will know till the very last day.

Then its to late. Fear is holding me back from telling them. I'm not an attention seeker. Am I? Should I tell them and get it over with? But what if fate for some unknown reason does not succeed and I tell every one and then I was wrong and I am the attention seeker. The Joker has fooled them all yet again.

When will I learn? Those who truly know cry with me and those who have no idea watch us in awe and pay us out for being idiots. If they knew the truth they would cry to. But the truth is I have only two months to live.

And counting…..